One Of These Days, I'll Be on A Library Wall

Ever meet those people who have a random idea and run with it, whole heartedly, right up until they hit an obstacle, and then drop whatever it was, throwing up their hands in frustration or genuine despair, before moving away from it? I suppose I'm one of those people; at least some of the time.

The hard thing about starting this blog is knowing that in the past, I haven't been very good about sticking with this type of thing- and that was back when I actually had some sort of creative voice! And maybe I do have that, still, but for the life of me, I have no idea where I'm keeping it.
It's not like I haven't done this type of thing before- the truth is, ever since I started using the internet, I've left a trail of short-lived self expression behind me- a list of blogs and personal accounts which dates back years; following me through my adolescence, up until just this very moment. I'm not sure if they qualify as skeletons in the closet, but they're out there. And as much as I tell myself that I need to not be bothered by the past, I can't help but be aware of their presence. The whimsical side of me is thinking that, if I were to describe the feeling I'm getting thinking of them, it would be of them whispering, softly, and close together (but not in perfect synchronization; they aren't all that closely connected) "You didn't finish us."

And that's true. I wandered away. I stopped caring, I convinced myself that it didn't matter what I put up because noone was reading it, or maybe (actually, in a few cases, definately) I started a blog with some grand purpose or something in mind, which petered out, as most hasty grand purposes tend to do, when you lack the wherewithal to run with them.

I can't promise that this one will be any different, but I intend to try. And maybe, because God knows I have enough questions blowing around my head to drive anyone up the wall, I will end up turning to this blog for awhile- if only to get these questions out somewhere.

So, that's all for now, I think.. I've been into napping for the first time in my life, and I can hardly keep my eyes open for some reason.. It's always around 1 o'clock, too..

I think maybe I'm going to look up some 'prompt' questions or whatever you want to call them, for later today..

Oh, by the way, internet--tomorrow is my 21st birthday.
Just felt like putting that out there, too.

Bye for now, for lack of a better sign off (mental note, try to think of one of those, too).

Toodles. (I wish there was something more powerful than a period, but with less of an air of enthusiasm compared to an exclamation point, but, alas, there seems to be nothing out there like that, so there we are.)